This week my kids have been fighting the flu. It is miserable to have sick kids and I wish that I could be sick instead of their little bodies. The first night my baby got sick I stayed up all night holding him and helping him when he threw up. I am such an emotional mama, and I cried when he was crying and felt helpless that I couldn’t do much to make him feel better. Even though I knew it would pass, I pained to know he was in pain. I know I am in good company in the fact that I would do anything for my kids. What an amazing blessing it is to have them and to have the opportunity to realize the love a parent has for a child. I didn’t fully realized the depth of that love until I became a parent myself. Feeling like I almost died bringing them here and then looking into their little faces realizing I would do it all again in a heartbeat if it meant having them in my life. I love my babies so much and have been thinking about how my love for them compares to God’s love for me. I feel so blessed to know that I am loved as a child of God. That I have a Savior who laid down His life for me and who is there to calm my fears and help make my burdens light. On days when I struggle to live up to the women I truly want to be, I am grateful for the reminders of God’s love around me, even if I fall short.
In a recent conference, President Thomas S. Monson, a prophet of God said, “Your Heavenly Father loves you—each of you. That love never changes. It is not influenced by your appearance, by your possessions, or by the amount of money you have in your bank account. It is not changed by your talents and abilities. It is simply there. It is there for you when you are sad or happy, discouraged or hopeful. God’s love is there for you whether or not you deserve love. It is simply always there.”
I know that God gives us a perfect example of how to be a perfect parent. I’ve often thought about how to ensure that my children know that they are loved by me unconditionally. I think that’s it is something that will ever be evolving as I try to become more like God, and that His love will be there for me, no matter the outcomes of my trials and struggles. I am grateful to know of a modern day prophet, like the prophets of old, who receives revelation from God to know how to help us in our modern day struggles. We have the opportunity to hear from him and his apostles this weekend and I am so grateful for the opportunity to become a better parent, a better person, and to be filled with God’s love as I listen to their messages. I invite you to listen to!